Whoever loves money never has money enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income. This too is meaningless. Ecc 5:10
I know at times, I will read someone else’s blog or story and think, “Wow, I wish I had all of that!” or “I wish I looked, wrote, dressed, had hair, etc like her.” We as women do this all the time.
It’s a dangerous mind game we play. I’m never going to have pretty, straight blond hair, even if I might wish for it for just a day or a moment. I’m not going to be taller or have bluer eyes. These thoughts are truly a waste of my time and yet, they flutter in like lost seedlings and sometimes begin to take root as weeds in my heart and mind. At least until I pluck them individually or get out the round-up and just hose those suckers down, dead.
I don’t have it all together. I yell at my kids, get super frustrated, have days where my husband and I aren’t very kind to each other, let a swear word fly now and then, and can’t make rice (hah I bet you laughed at that one, it’s true but I can cook). I don’t have this Christian thing all figured out. I still have lots of questions, which doesn’t mean I am insecure in my faith but instead that I’m still hungry and excited for His answers and love digging for them. Turning up juicy tidbits and surprises all the time. I think that totally rocks!
I want God to keep rocking my socks! I want to continue to be a student of His word and being thrilled by the discoveries. I don’t want a complacent faith, where I think I have all the answers and no reason to open my bible. I don’t want to become so entranced by my own feelings of righteousness, that I can no longer ponder another’s thoughts and beliefs, even if ultimately we disagree.
Faith shouldn’t become stagnant. It can and it does but only if we allow it. Do not allow yourself to become bored with the Word. Don’t get focused on what you don’t have and what others do seem to have in their hands.
When you see me post exciting news, please know, I’m not bragging. I am just in utter shock and amazed that God could use even me, to be a part of His work. I’ve always wanted to be a missionary but that isn’t in our cards now and may never be. My mission field is here. Online, in my home, in my life. Here with my sweet readers who bless my heart each and everyday. For me, that is more than enough. Because it is unlikely I will become the next Karen Kingsbury, and that’s okay. Let where you are right now, be enough.
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. Proverbs 31:30