As I pulled the letter out of the mailbox, I felt the familiar queasiness take over my stomach.
Not again, not again… Lord, I don’t want to read this. I don’t want to keep going down this road. Please, Lord, tell me what you want me to do….
Another silent prayer went up. I did the one thing any girl would do, I called my Mom for advice.
“Mom, I don’t know what to do. I know I’m being manipulated. Every time I ask him not to discuss certain things and in every single letter, he writes more about it. I feel like I am being a bad witness if I tell him to let me be.”
She gave me the normal supportive mom bit. It helped, a little.
“I don’t know. I just wish God would give me a clear answer…” I didn’t finish when my thoughts were very clearly interrupted, mid-sentence.
“It is not your job to save him.”
When God speaks, he doesn’t mince words. I had asked for a clear answer and boy did I get it. There was no doubt where this came from.
Do you find yourself struggling to say no? Is it the people pleaser in us women, or is it a struggle all Christians have? Is it okay to set boundaries, even with fellow believers? How have you struggled with removing a toxic person from your life?
Above all else, guard your heart
for it is the wellspring oflife.