But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
This week as I thought about the Casey Anthony ruling and saw many ugly comments made about her, it made me do some self reflection. It wasn’t pretty.
I am guilty of so much.
- being jealous
- saying and doing things out of pure anger and spite
- sex before marriage
- using the Lord’s name in vain
- not honoring my parents
- seeking revenge
- suicidal thoughts
- wishing and praying for death
- wanting to run away and never look back
- using alcohol to numb
- wishing someone dead
- horrible thoughts towards those I love
- impure lustful thoughts
- self injury
The list could and does go on and on. I am guilty. The saddest part is I did all of these things while knowing Jesus as my savior. Often believers want to put themselves up on a pedestal. You know, the one where we’re better than others because at least we didn’t do that!
But I’m no better than Casey Anthony or OJ Simpson. I may not have allegedly murdered anyone with my hands but I have in my mind. I have thought about how much easier life would be if certain someones weren’t walking the earth.
Clearly guilt could rule my life. It has. But I am covered by grace. Completely covered but completely undeserved. Just like you. Just like Casey and OJ can be. When I keep my eyes on the one who took my sin, I make better choices. Does my flesh still stumble? Yes, and when it does, I get back on my knees and I ask forgiveness.
Because His grace is enough for even me. And it’s enough for you. And even Casey Anthony.
Anyone who hates a brother or sister is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life residing in him. 1 John 3:15