Clarification |

I just wanted to clarify my post from the other day (I Feel Like I’ve Failed), now that I am starting to come out of my hormonal fog.

First of all, please don’t misread what I wrote to think that I believe anyone who is on meds is a failure. I was writing more of how others have made me feel because I have this problem that seems to have no solution. The stigma that as a Christian, I haven’t done enough work with God and that is why I am suffering and if I have to rely on meds instead of the Lord, I have failed in some way.

While I am sure this could be true (for me), I still believe that medications are necessary for many people. I would rather take something when I am feeling suicidal, then to allow those crazy thoughts to take me to a place I can’t ever return from. I have been able to control them so far but what if I can’t at some point? I know I am not supposed to be in a place of constant worry and I am not. However, I do think there is a point of being realistic and knowing that there is a potential for danger and that I need to be equipped and prepared because living in denial could honestly cost me my life. That’s the simple truth.

If you have meds that have helped you, I have to say I am a little envious. After 3 days on Prozac, I feel absolutely terrible. I have a screaming headache, not quite a migraine but close. I also have not slept this week. That does not help how I feel, how I think, or the headache. So, once again, I am done with that medication. I will continue to look for something more natural and work on a few areas of my life that need it. *Please don’t panic, my prescription is designed specifically to be a very low dose that I can start and stop at any time. It’s only meant to be taken for 2 weeks out of the month.

There’s a possibility this is my thorn of my flesh. I don’t really know. I’ll keep seeking a solution. I hope and pray it’s not my thorn because it’s a pretty dangerous thorn!

Anyway, I felt there was some clarification needed because the last thing I want to make anyone feel, is judged. If you suffer like I do, my heart breaks for you. If you have found something that helps you, I rejoice for you!

Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.